My Thoughts Exactly… Ownership and other rant worthy topics…
Being a young woman in this big bad world, people are naturally very protective of me. This is great cause I know how much people really care for me, however it ALWAYS ends up becoming an overly possessive issue where I feel like I am losing my voice 😦 I think it is great that I get feedback from others before I do something – it allows me to weigh it’s worth. Sometimes though, all I really just want to do is fall flat on my face and experience it myself. I would one thousand times prefer to try something and it fail than to have never of took the leap myself and experienced every part of it.
What bothers me, is that what always starts as a concern ends as a fight to defend your own lifestyle choices. To do what you would have done instinctively if another had not interfered (for better or worse).
One thing I have never ever understood is why companies will search for job candidates on facebook. Check them out before they are hired, regardless of their qualifications. How the hell is it any of their business what you do in your private life – be it cross dressing, partying, or family functions??? Please don’t give me the lame ass excuse that they want employees that will represent their company properly… c’mon?!?! So dumb!!! Wether the guy has a foot fetish or not does not change his performance at work… stop trying to invade people’s personal space and turn us all into lifeless autobots! It`s our little preferences and passions that make us who we are.
Another pet peeve… people who say dumb, negative things for absolutely no greater good. People… if you don’t have nothin’ good to say – DON`T SAY NOTHIN`!!! Keep your mouth shut and the universe will reward you with not labelling you as a douche!
All this to say… let me live my golden life the way I WANT to please 🙂 I think I have good enough judgement to understand and evaluate what is good for myself. And if I don`t… well it`s about time I learn for myself.
Merci, thank you!
Dearest Hater…
Blah Blah Blahhhhhhh… Rant time…


Another thing that’s on my mind that I just can’t shake… Malicious people who underestimate me constantly. We all know who I’m talking about… the people who assume that just because you know how to apply makeup and wear a pair of high heels that you have nothing more to offer. The ones who are surprised when you act “out of character” like a normal human being and show any sign of the fact that you are just like them. PEOPLE!!! WE ARE ALL THE SAME! GET OVER IT ALREADY! Just because I choose to present myself in a certain way DOES NOT MEAN that I’m stupid, a gold digger, high maintenance, a princess or egotistical. I am just a girl making the most of what she was given and working hard to maintain the physical, emotional and psychological side of herself… As much time as I spend shopping and lip glossing, I am reading, cooking, exploring, loving, watching and creating. So just eat it haters.
When I am in vulnerable moods such as these, there is only one thing that ever makes me feel better – this song. That is all. Somehow, it is always comforting to me – no matter how many times I play it 🙂
Billy Joel owns a part of my soul.
Idiotic Peoples – lets rant together!
Is it just me fellow peoples, or are people really as stupid and evil as I beleive them to be? I really hate to say it, but there are very few people out there who have never let me down, backstabbed me, or befriended me for some form of hidden agenda.
Honestly, I am becoming pretty damn weary of these characters and can see how some people end up so miserable and bitter in their lives. I know I will never turn into one of these people as I am a stubborn fighter filled to the brim with a passion for life and adventure, but some days even I hit rock bottom. These people are positivity poison. Nit picking every ounce of joy you find in your personal or professional life and dissecting it untill it is as unappealing as they are. Bastards!!!
Or what about the punks out there that always try to beat you down by blaming everything that went wrong in their lives on you? Take responsibility for your own actions you losers – everyone else out there has to! What I wanna know is what makes them so special that they were chosen to dictate the fate of the mortal world!?!?!?
Geesh! I know I’m ranting and all but I know you all know someone like this out there, or at least once have (good for you for telling them off and flushing them). If you happen to BE one of these real life shit disturbers – cut it the hell out! We arn’t in highschool anymore and it won’t make you popular or famous. So do all us happy people a favor and stop trying to drag us down into the dirt of your miserable existence!
I know jealousy is a big thing between girls – we are naturally made to compete for the best man to ensure our offspring the highest chance of survival. Ladies ladies ladies… Instead of battling each other, why don’t we team up and share tips, tricks and lifestyle ideas with each other? Us bloggers get it – why don’t the rest of ya?! 🙂
That is all for my rant for the moment – feel free to add your own line of what/who pisses you off in the comment forum!
Ciao for now…
Sink or Swim – The Marriage Debate

Coffee Shopper
- Job in my field! Although I am enjoying my current employment as “Leasing Agent” for luxury apartments, my heart lies in fashion! I love that I am doing the interior design for the new units as well – it is truly awesome, but my end goal is to work with a fashion magazine publication here in Montreal. I am a Montreal girl – my heart, soul and love support are all here… no such thing as moving away from my friends and family. Just not an option, even though New York city is magazine central!
- Boyfriend girlfriend drama… well I won’t get into too many details, but I find relationships sooo hard (especially moving on from past relationships). How do people have the courage to repeatedly open their hearts to new people without comparing everything about them to the past? I love my boyfriend to shreds, but sometimes I find it very hard to relate to him. This always is a head breaker!
- It’s fashion week! Here in Montreal our finest display their great talent all week on the runways of the Bonsecours Market in the Old Port. I have just not had the same urge to attend as previous seasons! I will be attending the Marie St-Pierre show tonight at 9pm, and am excited about that… but the weather seems to imitate my icy mood of the moment and I don’t even want to think about trekking across half the city to attend a fifteen minute show :(. This is not like me, but Canadian winters I guess have a way of teaching you some things about yourself.
- My Ex. I am not someone who dwells on the past, however I can’t seem to wrap my mind around the fact that my ex is getting married. At 23! I don’t know, this just seems to be an impossibility to me. So young, so weird that we dated. Weird weird weird. I am very happy for the both of them (and that is not just something I am saying to appear like the un-jealous girlfriend – I really do mean it), it really just blows my mind.
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The future. What does it behold? I know you can never determine what you will do or who you will become, but somehow I feel wildly out of control and suffocatingly restrained. I want to travel, love, live, feel, touch and taste everything in my sight. I feel impatient and almost like things can’t happen fast enough. This is the itch of youth I assume. The idea that there is never enough time to adventure into life. I want children, but am afraid of a routine that would kill my freedom. I want a husband but am afraid of being taken advantage of over time and not even realizing it – feeling trapped. I sometimes think I would be just as happy to be a travelling gypsy or a beach bum selling shell necklaces from my hammock – but no, that would be the easy way out. I am scared I will die without enhancing or enriching anybody else’s life in a massive way. Some days I ooze wisdom, today I stink of fear and insecurities.
Today I am fragile, emotional, and as you can see nothing is broken but it still feels like it needs to fixed.
On a happy note, I am counting down the days till June 3rd – Billy Joel & Elton John are coming to Montreal on their world tour and yours truly has tickets!!! This is my past wrapped up in a concert – I never thought I would see my idol Elton live… and now one of my dreams will be realized! Just hope I won’t be globetrotting in Romania, Paris or South Africa by that point (I will be there this summer). Then again, I love how unscripted my life really is 😉 Now there is something to smile about!
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