514 Outfit Post – Back Home/Getting Ready

So, I’m slowly getting back into the groove of everyday 514 life… little by little errands and chores are getting done… but damn have I missed my wardrobe, selection, and the little creature comforts of home…

What I’m Wearing

• Rayure lycra blouse top
• Vince lycra second skin pants
• DVF Leather Jacket
• MAC Back in Black collection eyeshadow
• Bare Escentuals Mineral Foundation
• Marc by Marc Jacobs hobo bag

Have a beautiful weekend xox

514 Outfit Post – Friends of Enemies

Gots some things on ma mind…

What has been going on in my head lately? A whole lot of wondering concerning the entire nature of the human race. The psychology behind why people do what they do and why. Lately, as well as many times in the past I come head to head with having to make the tough decision of who I flush and who I keep in my life. The hardest part is figuring out who to keep and who to let go of.

There are some people (if we are lucky enough to know them) who would take bullets on our behalf. There are others who front like they would but when it comes down to judgement day they bail on your ass. The problem is, you can never really be sure which person is gonna do what. I mean, think about it. We all have best friends that have let us down, and enemies that have helped us out… how the hell are we supposed to pick up the warning signs when we’ve finally let our guards down and opened up to trusting someone? What’s up with all these “frenemies”?!?

Must we all live in a paranoid state and close our true personalities and feelings off to the world simply because others misuse and abuse them? Because other people do not hold your beleifs and truths to be as sacred to them as their own? Because somehow crushing yours has no relation to them and theirs? The sickening part, is that a larger few than I would like to admit of the worlds population actually get a rush out of bringing you down. WTF people… I thought we were all in this together! Have you not HEARD of Mr. Marley??? Fucking apply his heartfelt meditations to your sorry ass lives and make them worth fucking living!!!

My mother used to constantly preach to me while growing up “Treat others the way you want to be treated”. And you know what? It paid off. I do. Absolutely. I give my friends my time, my loyalty, my trust and every ounce of my personality. I share with them my passions, my loves, my fears, desires and insights. So why is it that I constantly see this repitition in my life of people who reciprocate but eventually do something major to let me down?

Intentional or not, I always end up feeling a little bit like the owner of a battered heart when yet another friend bites the dust. Am I too unrealistic? I mean, we ARE only human… we all falter (and god knows I do too)… I feel like I have to get back up on the horse and keep riding alone. Like life will always be like this for me. Will I be standing alone in the end with only a broken heart? I mean when your friends are your enemies and your enemies your friends, how do you know YOU haven’t let the right people down???

My heart is becoming a strong muscle through life’s trials and tribulations, and I know that it is only a sign of health… no need to worry. In fact, friendship in many ways is a comparable to a very deep love. A love that binds you without the need for sexuality. I do not regret falling in love with every person I meet. With their differences, their lives, experiences and personalities. I never want to be closed off to love of any kind… or getting to know a genuine person. I just wish that sometimes love was not tied to war… that the feelings of positivity that take over you can cause so much hurt in their own right. It takes time to heal. Some scars never fade in the futures you hold with others… they merely leave barricades that can never be brought back down.

All to say… people! Please be careful with each other’s hearts. As strong and central as they may be, they are still very delicate parts of our being. I know I have not always been as careful and regret the pain caused by my own actions. I have paid for it, maybe not nearly enough… but all I know is that guilt and sorrow can take a hold of you like nothing else can.

Alright… ENOUGH ALREADY!!! Let’s get back into the groove!!! Gemini multiple personality switch… NOW!

Don’t know why, but I am TOTALLY digging my chipped nailpolish with this look. Obviously, the white trash hoe in me needed to be unleashed

So comfy!

So tired! Babe snapped these shots and went ape with the camera long after my starbucks wore off… phew!

In my “New York” state of mind…

What I’m Wearing

• Bellz graphic tee
• Bebe crochet chain vest
• old Parasuco jeans (loves ‘em)
• Michael Kors belt
• Coach purse
• Coach bootie sandals
• Thomas Sabo charm necklace
• John Hardy bamboo hoop earrings
• Gucci watch
• Aldo accessories ring
• MAC lippie in Angel

This post is dedicated to my Babe. Dare I say the only one who has never let me down and continues to be open, honest and accepting of all the shattered peices of a girl I can be at times. I love you. Truly. Thank you.

Love you all… thank you ALWAYS for droppin’ by the online 514!